"I’m a paradox. I want to be happy, but I think of things that make me sad. I’m lazy, yet I’m ambitious. I don’t like myself, but I also love who I am. I say I don’t care, but I really do. I crave attention, but reject it when it comes my way. I’m a conflicted contradiction. If I can’t figure myself out, there’s no way anyone else has."
So this is what those nights feel like .. I can honestly say something doesn’t feel right. Could just be my mind, or what I’m feeling could be true. I just have the biggest fear of looking stupid, and I have the strongest thought that I am. This is a whole new realm of shit. Im not tryna be up crying, but I can’t sleep. I hate being in mental places like this.
So this is what those nights feel like ..